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Friday, November 29, 2013

Fleeting Feeling of the Absolute Carefree

For the past few months I haven't really been doing anything. Ever since my classes have ended, that sense of fighting for the future thing just stopped happening. Every week, I choose what days to go to college, the factors depend on whether I feel like it, if my friends are going and if I have something to do. When I go to college, the working studio is always filled with juniors so I have to find a lab to work in. By "work", I mean the short film project my group is working on for our graduation, and by that I mean "pass the time". Ever since my part in CG modeling was done, I had a few weeks of not doing anything and then I got called back to work on water simulation. Early stages was horrible, I believe I had complained it before in previous posts, if not, that's nothing to mention about now.

The past month (late October onward), all I've been doing is; 1) Find a computer, 2) Switch on the computer, 3) Open Maya 2012, 4) Open the water simulation scene file, 5) Open Firefox/Chrome, 6) Log into Facebook and Dropbox, 7) Play Pokemon, 8) Tweak water simulation, 9) Repeat step 7. When lunch time comes, I'd call Emmanuel and Ann Nee and we'd go catch lunch together and pretty much hang out at the restaurant and at the lab until I go home, usually at 3 or 4pm.

There really isn't much for me to do because I had pretty much nailed the water simulation. All I had to get was my group's approval on the simulation and I would be done. The last two weeks all I did was refining the simulation but in count of days, it took me only 2. Finally today I passed the files to my group member who's in charge of rendering. Now I'm back to doing nothing.

A few days ago, our lecturer posted on Facebook that our final submission date is the first week of December. Honestly, I don't know the progress of my group, our group leader does not update us or tell us what is happening. I only found out that our animation have finished when I asked a few weeks ago, and I still don't know our group's progress.

So, our final submission is in December but our graduation is in April. I had the thought of getting a part time job until then but knowing myself, I'm too lazy. I'd rather sit at home and hunt shiny Pokemon, read manga and watch anime. Night time is Dota2 time so that is not a problem. Maybe I'll really get a part time job to get some extra money. I've been overspending on food recently. Seriously, all I've been spending my money on is food, though there is a 10% spending on games.

A mail came in the other day with the particulars about my graduation. There are so many rules and so many words I feel that it's such a hassle and a bother. The price is expensive too! It's such bullshit. I really can't wait for my graduation, I can't wait to get it over with because thinking about it makes me feel such stress from such hassle.

When I don't go to college, the time I wake up range from a span of 11am to 2pm. After waking I would spend my time just like that. If I feel like it, I'd make nuggets for lunch, if not, it's instant noodles. After lunch I would just hang around Facebook, play Pokemon, watch anime, read manga or just spend the time doing nothing. Then evening comes and Skype would become busy. Every day I'd talk with KW, Ann Nee and Mal (Mal comes on pretty late since she's overseas now). Emma and Cardin seldom joins the conversation. On weekends, Kai will be around. Some nights we'd Google Hangout together with the addition of Cheryl and JL. And it's become a habit to play Dota2 every night. We'd play until 3am (4am on weekends). So now I got these eyebags. I plan to ditch Dota2 one night to get enough sleep. I'd also like to get some exercise if possible, sports or hiking or something.

So for the past month, I've just been "living the moment". I haven't put much thought on what to do after graduation and stuff like that. I just focused on the immediate moment. Unless planning what to eat the next day counts. I really wonder what to do after I graduate though. I guess university is the way to go. I doubt I'm ready to start working. Pfft. Me, working. I really can't imagine that.