D-Event

I went to this event that I have no idea what the name is but it was a marvel. I had a booth so I could enter the event place earlier than everyone else. When I got in, I immediately went to the rides. There was this Minecraft inspired water slide. It was freaking neat! I went on it a couple of times and then I hanged around the amazing food stalls selling food of epic proportions. I did not notice it but the event place had opened and I was enjoying myself I lost track of the time. Suddenly someone came up to me and asked me, "Hey, where are the stuff you are selling? Where's your cosplay costume?" and suddenly the whole place turned dark. I was stunned and shocked. I realised I don't have any of them with me. I was empty handed, only my booth vendor pass around my neck and my wallet in my pocket. I saw everything start to move in slow-motion and I blacked out, only to find myself awake on my bed, distraught and full of panic. For a second I thought it was AniManGaki already. That really scared me so much I stressed about it since this morning. I told my friend about it and she said it's my brain telling me that I'm nervous. I guess that's right. I know for sure my brain is telling me that I'm full of panic and worry as well. Only one week left to the event. I gotta check if my badges are ready or not soon. I feel so unprepared but I know that I am about ready. Brain, why you do this to me?

About This Blog

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It's been a long six years since I last signed up for a Blogger account. Let's talk about my blog.

A lot of my friends change the name or title of their blog a couple of times at least once, someone I know changes her blog name once every week until she forgot her password. The name of my blog, Raison D'etre is a French phrase meaning, 'reason for existence' which, back then I thought was a really cool name for a diary or in this case, a blog. I had the intention of recording down the notable moments of my life in this blog and so I did. And now, the name of my blog is the very question I ask myself everyday, "What is my purpose in life? What do I want to do? Where do I want to be? What do I want to achieve?" and I haven't found my answers yet.

Vsauce videos always remind me how short life is. I feel that I want to carpe diem and feel self achieving. If that makes sense.

May 2007 was the time I started blogging. I remember my first blog post, it was a ridiculous and really embarrassing introduction (or 'hey it's my first blog post' post) so I deleted it, I wish I didn't so I can laugh at myself for how silly it was. When I first started, I had a couple of rants and pointless 2 sentence long posts about what happened in class or why I disliked this teacher and sort. I had those deleted too because I thought about how childish and naive it was, I don't have the right to condemn my teachers who taught me.

In the middle stages of my blog, it became a random mess consisting of daily events, nonsensical posts (random rambles), pictures and poems. Eventually as I reach adulthood, they became posts about major events in my life or just AMG (Anime, Manga, Games) events and the sort. I also became inactive a couple of times on this blog. Now, I would come here on my blog to express my thoughts and emotions when I believe it's inappropriate to post on Facebook.

Sometimes when I feel really down or when I miss someone I come here and blog about it instead of posting it on Facebook as to not worry too many people. If there are actually people who worry about me.

I don't know how many friends read my blog and who reads my blog. I only know a few who do and most of them are from my secondary school days. I always wonder if people I know in college or from the cosplay movement read my blog. I always get cautious when I post a blog post and sometimes will reconsider what I wrote but now, I just check for spelling and grammar errors. I start to belief that I should be more honest with what I post on my blog.

In the past six years of blog posts, I have a few blog posts that contain hidden messages of all forms and styles. They usually hide a secret or something only for me to remember. Why am I telling this? I believe those "secrets" are not much of a secret anyway. It's not like it's gonna harm anyone. Some of those "secrets" are childish acts of stupidity though.

Blf givw gl wvxrksui gsrh xlwv wrwm'g blf? Gib gsv mvcg lov.

Wt hvwg kog vofr tcf mci, W rcb'h hvwby mci qob rsqcrs am chvsf qcrsg.

I don't really remember what my blog first looked like. All I remember is that I used to have a music player at the bottom of my blog. The layout didn't change much. I don't remember what my first color scheme was but that background has been black for a long time now. I recently changed it to a shade of grey because white font on black is just too much when most webpages are white.

Why did I write this? I wanted to save it for the 10th anniversary of my blog but I was looking through some old posts and rode the nostalgia wave so I had to write this post. Here's to more great memories ahead. Cheers.

Galaxias Wars Skills Camp 2013

I wanted to open this blog post with an epic intro but I got too lazy to think of one.

So the annual skills camp. For about two months before the camp, the senior scouts and the scouters started planning everything for the camp. A lot of new things were to be brought in this camp and it was intense. With Maverick busy this year, Sean and I had to take his plan and take care of the scout troop. Eventually it lead to Sean becoming the camp chief and me the assistant (which I did not know until the first day of camp). Because we didn't get to have a Tenderfoot Training Course this year, Sean and I kept teaching and training the scouts during troop meetings to prepare them for the camp, with the lack of TTC, we wanted the skills camp to be big. And we put a lot of effort into it, all of us, seniors and scouters, which we happily succeeded. The theme of the camp was proposed by the seniors, a combination of Greek mythology and Star Wars. Benjamin told me that they have bigger plans for next year and beyond as the themes will be based on the word 'hybrid' which is a six year plan, with each concept based on each letter of the word 'hybrid'.

Majority of my contribution to the camp is the photography, video and editing department. I basically had to make sure there were senior scouts taking photos and videos during the activities of the camp and all videos had to go through me for verification and critique. I also worked on the campfire opening video which took a month of preparation and when it played successfully during campfire, I almost cried of relief and joy. (Because the one I did was year was a huge failure)

Like usual, our scouters for the camp were Sean, Maverick, Yu Feng, Wern Kit, Ivan and me, and this year was also had Yong Tick to help us. A new feature in the camp was the exhibition hall planned by Benjamin. He had collected some scarfs, camp booklets, logbooks and uniforms for the parents and visitors who come for the campfire to see. I must say it was very impressive. The campfire this year I must say was quite a big success. We had not expected so many parents to come for the campfire but we were prepared. We learned from last year's mistakes and made this year's set up a lot more advanced. Mr. Dawson came to see the campfire as well and did a great help by helping us with the scouts. The newly assigned co-curriculum teacher, Madam Ngau for the school showed support by attending our campfire as well.

During this camp, I got to know our scouts even better. And hopefully the troop's skills camp will get even better.

I'm looking forward to sending our scouts to district events now that we have support from the new co-curriculum teacher. JOTI is coming soon.